myheart talks,

MetalRock Heart-

2011-04-17T09:57:00.002+08:00

Don't make me hate you more alright? I hate this feeling.

Dim lights.

2011-04-15T23:01:00.001+08:00

It's already April , four months pass. Isn't it just so fast? Last year seems like one more ago. Now, I'm preparing for O's. Hoping its not too late to start. I've got my mother tongue all messed up! Urggh, can't believe. Zhao is nag me all day long to study hard, do all homeworks given, listen class. She say till like I'm a failure (HATE). So, now I guess I have to really concentrate on my studies. Life, really isn't easy. We've got time when we can play all we want and enjoy. And there's also time when we've to settle down and concentrate. 俗话说，先苦后甜。苦了后，再有甜。Well, I've got nothing to talk about my life. I don't want to talk about where I'd gone to , what I've been doing, what I've said.

Now, my throat feels so uncomfortable. I guarantee I gonna have sore throat soon* . Tomorrow , I gonna go for the mother tongue remedial, to shut her from nagging. Its from 9 to 11:30 I guess. Hope I won't overslept. If not, too bad~

11:01PM

Rock Chocolates.

2011-03-02T17:04:00.003+08:00

Its been long since i last updated. so yea , come to update cos happen to pass by my own blog. I jus finish eating th chocolate vernon gave me for my very belated birthday present, haha! and i feel like vomiting now. i guess i ate too much of it.

I can't rmb when is th last time since we ever had jus one day without quarrels. can't rmb when is th last tym u held my hands. can't rmb when is th last tym we looked at each other and smile sweetly. can't rmb when is th last tym we went to tht playground tgt.. And, tht park we always used to go together with xiao mundmund and talk about our stuffs. All of those were too long ago.

Just so you know

2011-01-24T18:56:00.000+08:00

i hate today! i will hate tmr too! cos i hav to sit very still on my chair, and my back hurts . stiff after hours of sitting down str. leave dance early today. ytd went to far east for cny stuffs. and i bought nothing -.- pathetic man. i still have no idea wad to buy yet. im aiming to lose 2 kg , or at least 1 kg before cny . i've got extra meat from my thighs alr! i can see it , so obvious sia :(. & i've got geography test tmr after sch. AFTER SCH. which means i have to suffer another , 50 more mins >( . so yea, gonna study for it now. don't want to fail it (:

a hug = i care

2011-01-23T00:04:00.002+08:00

i've been staying home whole day. didnt step out of my hse door-.- all i did was eat , watch tv , watch movies alone on funshion , do my ss emaths chinese homework , ya i did my homework:), and i DELETED my facebook account.
And look at the rules of love above , let me type out for a clearer view.
-kiss on the lips = i love you
-kiss on the ear = you are special
-kiss on the nose = laughter
-kiss on the cheek = friendship
-kiss on the forehead = i comfort you
-kiss on the neck = i want you
-kiss on the shoulder = you're wonderful
-kiss on somewhere else = be careful
-play around with hair =can't live without you
-holding hands = happiness
-arms around waist = you're mine / i need you
-a hug = i care
blahblahblah, lazy type th rest. anw, th main point is this .
a hug equals to "icare" . you know, whenever you're sad, a hug always helps. it shows tht someone cares abt you when u needed them. for my case , different (: my him just won't be here for me when i need him . nvm , like he said. i am different from any other girls. so i have to be treated differently right? u go and die pls.

2010-12-31T09:42:00.000+08:00

I wanted to post sth.. but its too much to say.. My mind is just a blank now..

AB.D.FG

2010-12-16T15:29:00.001+08:00

IAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBOREDIAMBORED
It's already 16th dec!! And jus afew more weeks, holidays will be over D: how sad right! Anw, Santa Claus is comin' to town! Christmas' here soon. I wonder what to buy for the xmas gift exchange , and what i gonna get :D:D:D:D!! I feel so fat now, I've gain lost of fats during this holidays ! OMGOMGOMG! IM ROUND. didnt went out alot. The one tht I can't forget is the Universal Studio :D ehh, im being sucha lazy bumm to upload the photos now, but mayb next post? idk. ohhhhhhh and i went to WWW ytd for (2.7$) , thanks to fiona for the tickets. sadly, ytd rained, so we only play like 3 hrs. And I also watched alot, i mean, really ALOT of movies! and i hate waiting for the vampire diaries season2 for ONE episode each week! >:( ! Craving for SUBWAY EATFRESH!!! CRAVING FOR IT BADLY!! :( OK, i shall get back to my christmas coral, the movie :/

Day2.

2010-11-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

Its day2 alr. 2moredaystogo (: Today morning woke up early to meet fionajamie. fareast , ate th wanton mee (Y) nice. shopped. Ion next. went back cck. YAMI yogurt . Homesweethome.
As for day1 , morning lot kfc for breakfast. wenthome , changed and accompany mother go aljunied pray. I pray for "ur" safety. At night met alicia at bpp for dinner at Subway Eat Fresh! Look, i gonna become so fat within th 4days :'( Kfc > SubwayEatFresh > Wanton mee (VERY oily) > XXL crisy chicken shared wif fion > YAMI yogurt > biscuit. I am eating my candy now :) OHHHH! I might be reborning my hair tomorrow!

ANYONE GOT ANY EASY WAY TO SLIM DOWN OTHER THAN EATING PILLS !?!

Balloons gonna fly away someday,

2010-11-25T22:34:00.007+08:00

Even there's millions of people caring, it can't replace yours. things always changes, things might goes well now, and the next minute, it don't. same goes for feelings. BUT, there's one in a million of the chance that it won't change.

well, seems like you're back to normal and great life now without me, so i guess i wont be interrupting ur life anymore. u shld have told ur friends about everything and how shity i am, but its fine. i dontmind. i didn't tell to anyone exactly what happened so far, and not planning to tell. no point telling , its alright for me to keep everything to myself. The night is so freaking cold, gonna wear my hoodie, lie on my bed, hug my little chamund. &i hope parents would just fck off for awhile now, damn pissed -.-

Waiting.Not?

2010-11-25T00:27:00.004+08:00

See, i got my balloons from dandan alr! i think its pretty, like veryvery! i've got a darkpink heart , a yellow flower with green stem&leaves , and a blue doggy which front legs' air gone out and make it look like a kangaroo hohoo, but still looks cute to me(: although not as nice as how those professionals did, acceptable loh :b . and i make a rabbit! RABBIT ok! :D i think mine look most cute except its green in colour ._.

ohh tired, gonna go lie on my comfy bed now.

i didn't mean to let you suffer for waiting , i wanted to let u wait because i want to know if u really do love me . u might say i have a small girl thinking , but i dun care. cause thts wad i think. if u love me enough, u will wait for me and not give up . but i guess , soon, u will just giv up and go.

Just aLittle more.

2010-11-23T11:28:00.006+08:00

Goodmorning earth, just brushed my teeth :D Look its tuesday , i am sitting infront of com and thinking what can i do for the rest of my day._. and i look down at my legs , yucks can't believe its mine , blueblack till crazy.

I've never ever seen this thing real life in my whole life , only saw before in cartoons , now i see it ok. infact i found it! :D so damn happy . but its ultraly disgusting. th "meat" inside th shell crawl out inorder to escape and , its body is long and tiny VERY disgusting when it dropped out of th shell. and th beach dere , no lies !!!got dead fish! fat somemore ! yucks.&prawns.

my dArling alicia gave me this, how sweet right?! :') she ask me not to be sad. thankys. ♥

ehhhhhh 11.47am now. i am feeling so hungry! i wan my ballllllooooooooooooooooooon!

1year3months19days

2010-11-19T16:13:00.002+08:00

Goodbye, my 1year3monthsand19days love(: you sucks ttm.
And its my another day rotting at home cuz theres no one I can go out with. My leg look so fcuking ugly ! blueblack all over my knee , yea thanks DANCE! nv had blueblack till like this before k. I have swollen eyes! :( shitz, ugly hell. And I couldn't go swimming tmrw!
I am not feeling hungry at all although I can feel my tummy beating inside. I guess my mood make me not wanting to eat. But I did ate 8piece of semi-sweet chocolate mummy bought this morning. Yea this is so fcuking fattening :( ! Shitz i can really feel my eye being so swollen now. gonna close it for awhile now .

new.

2010-11-19T01:07:00.000+08:00

Yes, i've changed my blogskin and link. I guess year 2010 is the worst and best year of my whole 15yearslife. Things just doesn't went well, and then went well (: exams just over for like amonth and my results sucks ttm ? now's holidays and we have to go back for extended lessons which are over alr, and of cuz hav to go back sch for dance as syf is around the corner. Quarrels between me and bf still didn't stop for at least one day, sad eh? infact worst , every hour. My poor brother in NS jus get back aweek ago from wenlai. I think I really miss my life in the past, like freaking miss them. Im sitting in the living alone :/ what can i do? There's no one to keep me company either. GOODNIGHT, gonna off com but not gonna sleep.